If It Goes Up, Must Come Down. [Part 1]

Should be Death.

We search for the meaning of life,
But everyone know there's no one,
So you just research,
Faking to be safe,
And try to forgot, remember,
And justify why it's fair to be alive,
Then you waste your time doing nothing,
As if procrastinating with an excuse were valid.

After that, people use to lie themselves,
Saying it's cause they are depressed, lazy, sinning,
Trying to thinking in something, Before death decide to choose you.

And that moment is when you lie to yourself one more time,
And then you don't think anymore,
So why we are not killing ourselves,
We are complainers and we do nothing to enjoy our lives,
And we can't do nothing if we don't lie us each other.

But I can say that the most useless persons are the ones who just do anything to change their lives,
And I'm that kind of person,
So I hope if I love someone it won't be like me,
Even if that means that it would never love me.

There's an arson in my head and I know it's my fault,
But I want to keep burning it to feel better,
Like if I were escaping from the shitty traps made by reality itself.

And I hope the shape of the darkness make me never be seen by people who deserve love,
So in that way they will never change to worse,
But I also hope people who deserves the worse see me all the days before they die,
Like if it were their own hell.

Cause those lies we make to ourselves just rot us inside,
And every side of us should be death,
But we have very much ego to think that's true,
Anyways it's better be alive to destroy more lives,
You can just assimilate it's true and then keep living as if nothing happened,
Cause what comes next is rather even worse,
Better be egoist than be dust in the face of the space.