Hru

"Hru" they ask they don't mean anything of it rly it's just a conversation starter that everyone says 5 million times but how do you respond when you feel like this, when you feel like dying but smth is keeping you here when you feel like crying but cant be a pain when you need to talk but no words form out of your mouth each time its just  I'm okay I'm good not the truth never the truth keep the truth hidden say what they want to here thats what you always tell yourself cause it's better this way right it's the feeling of wanting to someone to notice but as so as someone dose you shut it down so no one worries about you cause that's better right? You get to the point where you just want to die and you feel nothing else just this longing that is what if I dissappeared, would they actually notice or care, you start doubting everything and eventually nothing feels real so what are you supposed to say when someone asks about your day, or asks if your okay?