i'll be holding onto you {joshler}

chapter one {house of gold}

tylers pov

~10 years old~
i was in the hospital looking at my dying mother. im crying i love her so much.

dad picked me up and put me over his shoulder because i havent showered in 5 days and i wouldnt move.

when i got home i started to write house of gold. "She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"

She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"

I will make you queen of everything you see,
I'll put you on the map,
I'll cure you of disease.

Let's say we up and left this town,
And turned our future upside down.
We'll make pretend that you and me,
Lived ever after happily.

She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"

I will make you queen of everything you see,
I'll put you on the map,
I'll cure you of disease.

And since we know that dreams are dead,
And life turns plans up on their head,
I will plan to be a bum,
So I just might become someone.

She asked me, "Son, when I grow old,
Will you buy me a house of gold?
And when your father turns to stone,
Will you take care of me?"

I will make you queen of everything you see,
I'll put you on the map,
I'll cure you of disease."

i started singing that with some ukelele cords. the song sounded good.

~*~ skip to 18 years old ~*~
its been 8 years since mom died, and seven years since he got married to kaiti.

kaiti already had a daughter so i have a stepsister now...

kaiti called me down. "yes kaiti?" "take your sister too the mall, make friends." "uuuugh why???" "because you havent been outside for a week"

"fine. -_-" she sighed and i walked out the kitchen. "LIZZIE GET READY WERE GOING TO THE MALL" I shouted. "KAY" she shouted back. it took her 3 minutes exactly. I walked her to my car and we both got in and I put my aux cord in my phone and started playing panic! at the disco.

Brendon Urie is so perfect ;-; and so is andy beirsack.  we sat in silence the hole way there. we walked in and she found her friends and they all had crushes on me e.e they're all 15 including my sister. they squeled when they saw me and I covered my ears.

"sing for us!!" they all said. "fine but not here in the parking lot." we all moved to the parking lot. and I started singing tear in my heart, yet another song I wrote. "Sometimes you gotta bleed to know

That you're alive and have a soul

But it takes someone to come around

To show you how

She's the tear in my heart

I'm alive

She's the tear in my heart

I'm on fire

She's the tear in my heart

Take me higher Than I've ever been

The songs on the radio are okay

But my taste in music is your face