I need strength to keep going. I've been trying to fight battles on my own but it hasn't been working out. Steady wondering if God hears me anymore when I pray. The very thing I hate is what I struggle with everyday. Tried my best to cut off the things that tigger me to go back to my old ways. Feel like I'm at my lowest point and the motivation I'm getting is from the person I'm tryna separate myself from. Not because they have done anything wrong but because I'm afraid of what I'll do if we meet up again. I feel numb when ever they come to mind & this is not how I want to feel, so I'm praying or at least trying to; asking God to help me and show me what I should do. Maybe I'm overthinking but I just needed to write out what's been on my mind for a long while 😪
