On July 1st 2022, I told myself "I am always going to be obsessed with you„
Before it was because I loved you.
I thought about you always.
I couldn't get your fucking name out of my head.
Olivia. Liv. Livy. Ollie. Olive. My Girl. My other half.
I gave them all to you, all your nicknames.
I couldn't get them out of my head.
Your laugh, your smile, your fucking eyes.
YOUR FUCKING DEEP BROWN EYES.
January 27th, 2024, 11:01 pm, I'm still obsessed with you.
But now it's because I hate you.
I keep imagining scenarios where I hurt you,
Lately I've been noticing that when I'm at my locker, you stand at yours and leave when I do.
Yesterday you spoke to me twice.
The first time since November.
So I keep imagining before I go to sleep, you ask me to be friends again, but then I screen at you.
I tell you all the things I think about you, everything I hate about you.
You're voice annoys me so fucking much.
You fucking ruined my life.
I make you feel the pain you made me feel.
I still can't stop thinking about you.
It's not because I love you, it's because I hate you.
But either way,
I can't stop thinking about you.
I was right, 575 days ago.
I will always be obsessed with you.
Just the reason will change.
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Trauma Poetry
PoetryPoetry about a girl named Olivia that traumatized me basically just me venting lol huge credits too @eren_spring bc i used a few of her poems<3 check her out she's amaizng