The Promised Love...

It all started on that night in May 2023 when everything was like a fairy tale. That day I had English and I finished early, I was returning with my best friend and my sister to go home and I saw Joana, i.e. my other best friend with her father in the car. I don't know what time it was exactly, but I think it was 9. With Joana, we were not as close as we are now, anyway, she is a good girl and helps the people around her as much as she can because she doesn't like to see sad people in this world, she is kind-hearted and beautiful to others but can sometimes get angry when I am sad for something that is not worth it. She is my psychologist, every time I have something I tell her, I will not hesitate for any reason, whatever happens, this girl will be by my side with her powers. Anyway, on my way back, I saw Joana and she told us to sit down at her house for a while because two of her friends will come, one is Angelo who had a relationship with Joana but broke up, and the other is Chris, Angelo's friend. I didn't know either of them, we waited 10 minutes for them to come and finally, they did. We met them and they both seemed very nice. Anyway, I always wondered why Angelos broke up with Joana because I saw her very happy in those days when she was with him. Her smile was everything, her eyes sparkled when she talked about him, and her whole face changed, but to tell the truth, I was also jealous because I had never felt such love from someone before. I always knew that I would never find my other half because in this generation we live in everything has changed and boys are not mature enough to keep a serious relationship, but you never know what can happen in this life. When Joana told me that she broke up with Angelo I was quite sad because I could see how hurt she was inside and how sad she was, she wasn't herself but she was trying to get over him. As we were sitting there, we were all talking together and Joana was very comfortable when she was talking. As I told you in the previous book, at first I liked Christos and then Angelos, At first, Angelos wanted Alexa, but then he lost his feelings because Alexa didn't give him any importance or send him anything else. When we got home that night I felt butterflies inside me I don't know what exactly I felt but I think it was love, during the days I talked with Angelo and spent my time talking to him about my routine and my personality and in general about my life. We talked sometimes on the phone when I could, I showed him how I cook and what I do in my daily life, we talked every day and this became a habit for me and I felt that if I didn't talk to him for a day the world would burn. He told me about himself and how much he loved his bike, he was very kind to the girls and especially to me because I had never felt like this before, we talked nonstop as if we were together but we were just friends nothing more. The day came when we all went out together as a group, not just me and him, it would look very strange if we went out alone and the others would suspect that we were together, that day he had come with his friend on bikes and we girls were with our feet and we just walked and talked all together. Unfortunately, the rain caught us and we had to run home, when we ran he turned and told me when he would see me again, and I told him I would see you again soon. He gave me a tight hug and then left and I and the girls sat in a tree until the rain stopped. When I was in a bad mood, I always talked to Angelo, he was the only one who could change my mood and calm my soul inside. The day came when I had to tell him what I had been through in my past with all the relationships I had, I told him that I was on my knees and I went to kill myself twice because of someone, I have forgiven him a lot but I shouldn't because I didn't know him very well personally but I had to tell him all this because I never knew what could happen between us. He told me that harming myself is not a good solution, he told me that I am strong and that I make the people around me smile, and I make them feel good, when he told me all this I felt so safe with him, I felt that I needed these words when I was ready to die from the pain of everything that happened.On June 1, I went out with my sister and my cousin to the playground, it was late at night and I was talking to him and he was telling me that he went for a bike ride in the mountains when we sat with the children in the playground I saw a bicycle stop somewhere, and I saw from afar that it was Angelos, it was very random I have to say, I didn't tell him to come but he came by chance. I called him and he came to sit with us to pass the time because we were bored alone. We had a great time that day too because I hit him, I gave him a good slap I have to say because he pissed me off a lot. At that moment he was talking to me about another girl and I really can't describe my jealousy, I was jealous to an extreme degree. But okay, I calmed down after a few minutes, then we were on the way home and he said to take me home, when we stopped to greet him he went to hug me but I, being the good person that I am, cuffed him, I don't know why but that's how I wanted to hug him say goodbye I was also starting to have feelings for Angelo, I felt like a little child with him, I felt happy, after so long I smiled again and he was the only one who made me so fucking happy, but on the other hand, I was afraid that if he ever broke up with me I wouldn't be able to I live differently without him. I went home and looked and thought that this man could make me happy for the rest of my life and I would be able to smile every day, I thought that my whole routine would change, I thought about how safe I would be with him. He told me that I am beautiful, kind, sensitive, and much more. During that period we were writing exams at school and I was trying to read but the only thing on my mind was him, I couldn't get him out of my mind at all, as if I had a big hangover. June 15 was the last day of exams and when we finished we all went and sat down at Joana's house, I had sent Angelo to come and sit together. To tell the truth, I didn't have time to see him because I explained to him that my parents didn't let me go out and that was killing me psychologically. I sat back at his feet and he grabbed me by the waist and we were talking, but I was hitting him and cursing him because that's how I show my love to him. I told him I was going home and he was sad and I was sad and I didn't know when I would see him again but I promised him that I would see him soon. When I left Joana's house, Angelos wanted to take me home but I told him that my mother was home, I hugged him and left but I turned my head back and called him to give him my rubber band, he was the only rubber band I had on me and I held my hair back with that but I decided to give it to him so he can wear it whenever he wants. I went home and texted him again, I did some work and at the same time I talked to him because I didn't want to waste even a minute without him on the phone, we had become so close that I felt like I found my other half. I didn't care about myself at all, I just made a promise to myself that if this person broke up with me, I wouldn't hurt myself. When it was late afternoon I had arranged with Joanna and my sister to go out around here, and I told Angelo to come for a walk with us, he brought his best friend, of course, to crack a little joke, but as everything was going well, my sister took a hell to drink and because Angelo didn't like him at all, she threw the hell back on his bike, I have to say that we laughed a lot, we had a lot of fun. My soul was so calm in front of him and I forgot all my problems when I was with him as if it was a healing medicine, I had a long time to feel important to someone and so unique to someone. I went through so much in the past and god brought such a person into my life to bring my smile back and make me feel like a little kid again. I was starting to stick with him a lot, I was starting to fall in love without controlling my emotions and without thinking if he would hurt me in the end, I have to say that I didn't care about anything, I just wanted to live happily for the rest of my life with him and without depression. He had told me so much that I could see how much he wanted me, I could see how much he cared for me and I appreciated that, I had never met a boy like that to care so much. In the previous days, he told me that he goes to the mountains by bike until late at night, and these days when he goes for evening walks in the mountains, I always tell him to be careful because you never know what might happen, I told him to take a shirt with him to change and have water with him. But he never listened to me resulting in me getting mad at him and not answering his messages, in general, I'm a person who gets mad when they don't do what I tell them, especially when I tell them to be careful, most of the times he listened to me because he knew that it bothers me when he doesn't listen to me. But I didn't stop getting mad at him for little things, sometimes he would come home late and I would yell at him when I sent him voicemails, I was sick of getting on his nerves a little because he was cute when he got mad.