if I were in love (Completed)

foreword

This anthology is all about reimagining things if life had gone better back then. These were written when I always found myself reliving the past, pulling me to the future I try to foresee. My mind would be in a haze most of the time as I try to figure out how it feels when you have someone to endear to for the rest of your life, or simply thinking of a moment when someone comes back and changes the course of our lives by asking for my hand and dancing away the pain from the heartless truth of my current romantic state. These were endless times I wondered about a person, seeking closure instead of drifting apart from each other. These were moments when I wished we could talk for another time, or I wished he still knew that I exist-not just a bubble popping out of his life. And I think this reflects how desperate I am, seeking love despite not believing in the magic of it anymore-the sparks you see, the butterflies you feel, and the pounding of the heart; I haven't felt those for a very long time, and I don't think it'll happen any sooner. Maybe, but the question is... when?

Or, it must be:

what would my life be like if I were in love?