The Poem Book That Shouldn't Be Seen [P1: If It Goes Up, Must Come Down]

Repetitive Messages.

I write you questions,
I do not know why,
What is the meaning of writing unknowns to you?

I'm just afraid of losing everything.

I honestly don't even know if I love you or not,
But I know I don't want to lose you,
I know that I want to save myself, that you are worth a lot,
I don't want to miss you, lose the look of those eyes yours.

I don't know what love is,
Lately I don't see anyone feeling it,
And less for me,
Every moment is really valuable, I don't want to waste it.

I sleep more and more,
I dream more and more,
I think more and more about you,
I love you more every time.

And I know that over time,
I can't stop being repetitive,
Or the opposite rhyme,
A randomly wrong love.

And I want to dream with you,
But something I want more is to be with you,
And if I'm only destined to forget you, I'd rather disconnect me.

I'm already used to you not loving me,
I'm used to receiving problems,
Some of which I can't even try to solve even if I wanted to,
And one of them is you, the most common representation in my poems.

The first girl I fell in love with,
The first person I really fell in love with,
And although every time I seem more and more happier,
Find me alone and you will see me crying.

I don't even know where to walk,
I don't even know where to go,
I don't even know who to talk to,
Loving you for four years ago.

Nothing I write makes me happy,
Nothing makes me happy,
Thinking about you makes me cry,
But every day I wish you more.

So I don't know what to say,
I don't know what to write to you now,
I only know that I love you,
And I can't stop hiding it,

I can't show it to you,
So I'm writing it to you.

Because the more I know,
The less I show,
And I know too much about you,
More than I can show you.

Because infinity is equal to zero,
And my love for you approaches limits,
That's why I can't show you anything,
That's why I couldn't receive anything in exchange.