Feelings

I Saw him After a long time. He was in the same room..I got dressed because it was a festival and he lived 9 hours away. I went to my Grandparents and suddenly I saw him....

I don't know what to Think or say... He barely looked at me or even glanced at me and when to another room. I miss our friendship.. We are the same age,Friends since birth...

Since we're Muslim so I try to keep my distance. I regret everything. I hurted him, rejected him and he just broke our friendship and went away forgetting all of our moments like our friendship never existed.

I was 13 at that time. I was confused, didn't know how to handle the situation. Scared of my Brothers and my family that if they saw me they will think wrong. My family is very supportive but my brothers are over-protective.....

I remember he was holding my hand and he confessed to me and I rejected him because I was scared, I was scared to lose our friendship, gain and trust but he literally went away and blamed me for everything. I told him we'll think about this when we will be in our 18s but he left........

I regret it. But it's not my fault. How was I supposed to know what love is at 12.
Now he said I am like his sister. But eyes never lie...... He now barely looks at me. We used to talk everyday. I hate boys tbh..... I am very introverted.. I have trust issues,I am very insecure and I let that get to me..I have been severely sick,admitted to hospitals many times but not once he asked about me. He blocked me but I blocked him first. He talked through my friends phone, apologized to me after that incident and never again talked to me. Even I went to his house which is 9 hours away because my brother had an eye operation in that city and his family and him and me used to Eat together but he didn't talked to me once.

I hate love. I don't think it's true and nowadays no one cares about anything and everyone is just busy in their own life, doing their own things. He has a few red flags 🚩🚩 and Plays games all day but I don't know why he comes in my thoughts,I tried to ignore him but he just... Idk...