If It Goes Up, Must Come Down. [Part 1]

Half

I'm halfway,
Probably more than half,
And I feel like I won't stay,
I won't have time to offer yourself.

Fucking hate it all,
Mad then sad, then death,
I think death is coming, It will,
Today I dreamed of a solar eclipse and a lunar eclipse, I lost faith.

I feel anxiety, even though it's getting better, I feel like I'm going to die,
I lost my bus card out of ignorance on the bus itself,
At least I don't have cavities,
You must know it by yourself...

What's the point of being smart if it only makes others see you as a fool,
A part of me says it's no use,
Isn't it cool?
Now I can't choose,

I could never choose what I wanted to do, because I wasted my time.