Only Series 1: My Only OPTION

Simula

"You were my only option,  I can't trust anyone".

He said as if I'd be delighted to hear it. Those words hurt deeply into my heart that I cried.

He just stand there facing me. He never changed after all these years,masama parin ang ugali!
He's eyes, still dark, focused, normal, so emotionless!

I have tried to forget him a long time, I have already moved on! Why does my heart feels sad seeing him!

"Hindi mo dapat to ginawa! Hindi dapat! Diba siya, siya yung gusto mo e, ba't hindi siya yung pakasalan mo! Bat ako pa!". Hagulgol kong sambi.

Hindi pwede na kung kailan niya gusto ay babalik siya. Tapos ako iiwan rin sa huli!

"You don't have a choice, your father owe me a lot, this is the least thing you could to help him". he insisted.

"No! Ayoko , ayoko! Gusto kong magpakasal sa lalaking mamahalin ko! Hindi na kita mahal, hindi tayo magiging masaya!". Saad kong naiiyak parin.

Andito kami ngayon sa labas ng bahay namin, sa may garden. Gusto kong kausapin siya dahil sa balitang narinig ko ngayon lang din. Hindi ako papayag na ipagkasundo nila ako sa taong hindi ako mahal at kahit kailan hindi ako kayang mahalin!

"Wala ka nang magagawa".

Unti unti akong lumuhod sa kanyang harapan. Magmakaawa kung kailangan.

''Please wag mong gawin to Ike, alam ko namang napipilitan ka lang naman,
mag hanap ka nalang ng iba, ano--'
Ahmm, babayaran ko ng unti ang utang ni daddy sa iyo, kahit ano gagawin ko wag lang yung kasal, para yun sa mga taong nagmamahalan, wag mo naman akong ipagkait doon". pagmamakaawa ko sa kanya sabay hawak sa dalawang paa niya.

"Just stand the fucking up!! My decision is final, you always beg but it won't change a thing!"

He spat angrily and turn his back to me towards our house.

And for the second time around, I saw his back leaving me.
His back that I hate the most at my lifetime. He always leave that's what he does!

I'm his only option, in order to get his inhiretance from his father he needs to marry someone and that's me!
But he's inlove with someone else!
They lived together for years! How come they didn't get married!

With my heavy heart and painful knees I gather myself inside our house.
There I saw my whole family eating, chatting and talking together with him.

They only see me as an option, everyone! I am there when there is no one left to choose! I thought he was different but turns out he was one of them.
I wish mommy was here, she was my only savior.

I ended my night not finishing my dinner and just go straight to my room.
Tomorrow will be my wedding day, I guess I need to sleep?.

A knock on my door woke me up. As I open my eyes I saw yaya luming entering my room holding a tray of food.

"Seyna, gising na! Ano ka bang bata ka! Kasal mo ngayon at hindi kapa naliligo, bumangon ka na diyan at baka papagalitan pa tayo ng daddy mo!".

Naglakad siya papuntang lamesa sa gilid ng kama ko, nilagay niya doon ang pagkaing dala niya.

"Opo yaya,maliligo na ko". Umunat muna ako ng dalawang kamay, sabay tayo at naglakad papuntang banyo.

"Siya, darating na maya maya ang mag aayos sayo, kumain ka pagkatapos mo riyan ha!" Sige na at aalis na ako".

Tumango lang ako sa kanya saka siya lumabas ng kwarto.
Simula maliit pa ako si yaya luming na ang nag alaga sa akin. Tatlo kaming magkakapatid , ako yung bunso.
Ang ate reyna, pa reyna reynahan sa bahay  at c ate deyna naman ubod ng kaartihan sa katawan. May mga trabaho na pero eto nandito parin sa bahay nagpapaalaga kay daddy.