The Poem Book That Shouldn't Be Seen [P1: If It Goes Up, Must Come Down]

If not?

Uppercase E,
That is the case,
That's the mess,
That's the base.

I do not know where to go,
I can't think of anything to tell you anymore,
I just have to let you go,
I can't think of anything to write to you, that's more.

I'm afraid that I managed to be a great person,
And even then I won't be with you,
Because then I won't have a reason to blame myself,
And I could only blame you.

What will happen if I really get the money?,
But I don't take you,
So where am I goin' to go then?
I could only fake you.

I will have nowhere to go, a reason to go, something to achieve, I will be a depressed rich man, surrounded by people who make me feel momentarily what I will never feel eternaly.

You believe in God,
But not me,
I don't have a reason to do it,
Maybe that's why I'm like this, maybe it's me.