The Poem Book That Shouldn't Be Seen [P1: If It Goes Up, Must Come Down]

Where do I fit

My brother joined the group of girls who gossip, they usually have a gay friend,
My sister created a group of friends with whom they got drunk and had parties,
My other sister's friends who liked anime, drawing, singing, those stands,
I should have joined a group of people who like video games, straight guys, those ones.

But I didn't want that for myself, I wanted something better,
In the end I was left alone, but will it be worth it?,
I guess I was born for something else, another way,
Because the girl I loved for years will never be with me,
And there is no way to fix it, there is no "stay".