Turn Back Time

"Turn Back Time"

Here I am, staring at a dead person's body. No pulses, no movement. Just lying around the road of a cold, dark night. A while later, my ears picked up the sound of the ambulance's sirens. I still stood there. Staring, staring hoping that it would show any sign of life. I just stared blankly as they carried the dead body into the ambulance...

Pagkauwi ko dumiretso agad ako sa kwarto ko, tinapon sa gilid ng kama ang mga gamit ko at humilata sa kama. I stared at the ceiling trying to absorb everything that happened...

***

"DYMA!" Nag gogrocery ako ng bigla ko na lang narinig ang pangalan niya. I shook my head denying the fact that someone called him. Must've be his new girlfriend.

"Ow." I exclaimed in pain. I looked around finding the man who stepped on my foot instead, I saw people rushing out of the store.

"Ano pong meron?" I tried to ask the lady beside me.

"Nako, hija! May naaksidente daw! Nagmamaneho kasi habang lasing! Tsk tsk! Kabataan ngayon!" The lady said.

I suddenly felt a chill run down my spine.

"Bata pa po?" I said.

"Oo! Nasa bandang 21 ang narinig ko. O sya, tutuloy na ako ha." The lady left me in shock.

I tried denying it pero hindi ko mapigilang isipin na baka si Dyma iyon kaya narinig kong may sumigaw ng pangalan niya kanina.

Without hesitation, I run off to the crime scene and again I tried asking 'what happened?' I can't think straight. I can't calm down! What would I do if it's really him?! I might not be his girlfriend anymore but... I still do care for him! I didn't want to break up with him in the first place!

I shoved people in front of me to take a closer look. When I got in front, I saw lots of blood on the street... I followed the trails of blood... It lead to tire tracks. Then... Then I saw a body. Not just ANY body. A body I'm familiar with... A body that I've spent most of my time with. Now, I... I didn't know what to do... Should I cry? Should I run? No. I can't do anything...

I turned my head to the right and I saw Dyma's family. They were all in grief, in pain. I feel like my heart was being squeezed. I don't know what expression to make and what emotion to feel. I just stared blankly at Dyma, being brought inside the ambulance...

This isn't happening, right?

I'm just dreaming..

This isn't happening!

***

I suddenly woke up, panting and sweating. I dreamt about it... again. It's been a month since the accident happened. Eto naman ako nagbubuhay zombie pa rin.

He is Dylan Marco Dirham, the guy I loved the most. We met 7 years ago at school when we were still sophomores. It's very funny, how we first met. Natapunan ko kasi siya ng pagkain at inisnob ba naman ako. Gusto ko kasing makarinig ng sorry, though it's my fault, nakaharang kasi siya! Then I started nagging him every single day. I remember back then, he would be the guy who'll ignore things that will be a waste of his time. He's very quiet and reserved yet very cold. Sayang nga ang gwapo niya, mayaman pa! Kung di nga lang araw araw ang period neto, nako! sinasabi ko sainyo, walang araw na hindi iiwan to ng mga tao! I just later discovered that he's just a bit frank. Deep inside that cold mask is a very warm and gentle guy. He's very understanding and considerate. Every single day I just can't imagine how much perfect he can get.