it's been two weeks.
two fucking weeks since phil left.
i'm so stupid.
the vision of him leaving out of our door, suitcase and all.
the movers are coming today.
why do i mess up so much?
can't do anything right.
i should just leave the planet now while i can.
no.
NO.
I NEED HIM.
I NEED PHIL.
i need my best friend.
my fingers hover over the pixelated numbers.
who are you kidding dan? you could never get him back. it's your fault anyways.
i dial phil's number and let the ringing envelope me as i wait patiently for his angelic voice.
"hello?"
"p-phil?" barley a whisper.
"dan." his voice is monotone, hidden of emotions.
before i know it all of words pent up this week start pouring out.
"phil! please come home. i'm so unbelievably sorry, i-i can't live without you! you-"
"save it, dan. you don't understand how much this hurts me, too."
i can't take it anymore. my voice breaks and i sob,
"PLEASE PHIL! I NEED YOU! I CAN'T EAT, I CAN'T SLEEP, FUCK, I CAN BARLEY EXIST WITHOUT YOU. WITHOUT YOU I HAVE NO ONE. I AM NOTHING. I DO NOT EXIST WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE. I DONT KNOW WHAT I CAN DO TO GET YOU BACK!" i pour into the phone.
"well, dan. almost is never enough."
and with that, he hangs up.
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