There is this wall
it hides me
from myself
from the hurt of my past
and from loving
I've pushed many away
kept them from meeting the real me
from getting to my heart
But one got through
but i refused to drop my wall
I've lost the one i love
the father of my child
i pushed to hard
for now he's gone
i finally let him in
inside my heart
inside my soul
by then it was far too late
now he's gone
i want him back
My insecurities have ran my life
they have controlled every aspect of it
hurt and lost
scared and afraid
sad and alone
i hide once again
not just from myself
but from my insecurities
from the pain
I hate these insecurities
what they have done to me
I'm the only one left to blame
i let everyone that hurt me
make me fear letting anyone know me
Now all that's left to do
is try and try
hope and hope
pray and pray
and never let go
never give up
for i love him
with all my heart
so much it has consumed my soul
he's my world
i want him back
no longer will i allow
these insecurities control me
