I simply find,
Every word out of your mouth
So re-pul-sive
Speaking with an authority
with which I disagree
This frustrating feeling
That holds me to the ground,
And you looking down,
THAT OF COURSE AT ME!
As I aimlessly stare at the blank ceiling
Knowing how much it reflects always me,
I silently remind myself
My simple concept:
"PLAY 'GOOD GIRL' OR RISK YOUR PERSONALITY!"
I hear your words dance in my mind
Taunting in such a calm monotone
Provoking me when you know,
There's nothing I can do
Sinking my level below,
The lowest of the low
Hey, get out of my head,
I can no longer seperate truth from lies!
To a stranger
Does it look like you just simply encourage
But of course I should know,
I FELL FOR THAT SHOW!
You make my every flaw,
My own horrendous fault,
Filling me with rage,
Anger trapped in my heart.
My mistakes, you haunt every-where, here, AND THEN
Recalling my problems and then telling me:
"Your every humane error,"
"Must be erased!"
Why is the blame always on me?
Calling me 'stupid'
Will never change me
If you were looking for machinary
Then you came to the wrong person
Because I am who I am
With humanity!
So for once in your life,
JUST SIMPLY GIVE UP!
I feel you watching from every corner
Watching, amused, on how I will fail
Always smirking behind my shoulder,
with an unsatisfied smile
I know that, you simply want me,
To be the best
But I feel like you're changing my destiny
But sometimes I wonder,
"Whose fate are you really trying to change?"
Where you once suffering like this too,
When you were younger?
Pressured into being the elite?
Finally surrendering,
Into their antics,
I wonder...
"Is the 'real you' somehow offending?"
Please wake-up,
From you living nightmare
I know that you want me to hate you,
So I simply won't care.
But trust me, you and I, are so alike...
Feeling self-concious, scared, pressured,
self-hating, self-loathing
To never be cured
But please, I beg you
For both our futures,
Lets find this 'Miracle Cure'!
Forget the scars, your demons gave you
Ungrasp the past of such feeling.
Walk proudly,
Head high and firm
And for once, just simply try to relax!
Because together, forever
We will find healing!
With no one looking over our shoulders,
Unsatisfied with our exsistance.
We now have a chance,
To simply let things be.
Isn't this freedom amazing?!
