I'm scared to admit, but you weaseled your way in.
Into my heart, into my mind, that's where you stay.
Why does this have to happen, is this how it's been?
Have I been blind up until this very day?
You say sweet words and fill my head with lies.
Then you go around and prove that they were.
You don't talk to me, rarely say hello, let alone bye.
My heart is devastated, I need a cure.
Here I am cold and broken, I just don't want to feel.
I long to be numb, to feel nothing at all.
From losing my aunt, to not knowing how to deal
with you, I'm losing it. I'm gonna fall.
I long to be numb. Numb and cold.
I don't want my heart, you can take it.
My dear, my soul is sold,
It lies in the bottomless pit.
Darkness around, that's all I see.
There is no light, no happiness,
I am a shadow of what used to be me.
Alas, I will surely not be missed.
An empty shell of a human being
Never again to be the same person.
Moving around without feeling,
Can't let this pain in me worsen.
I have no more fake smiles to give.
No more lies of "I'm fine" to spew,
Without feelings or a heart I will live
I felt more than you knew
But now I'm gone and empty too.
YOU ARE READING
June
PoetryI've lost a lot of people lately, and I couldn't be 100% sure with you on who this is about. I was in such a world of pain and really foggy and living in my head at this time. My aunt passed away on June 8th, 2015. This poem was written June 14th.
