Dedicated to : NjallHoran_ljfe
For her amazing support and , it started with twitter Irene , and ily bæ ♥
It's amazing how you thought everything will be fine .
The pain you go through seeing them ignore you is something you can't explain.
It'll be okay someday ...
You have been living in these thoughts ,
Thoughts that hold nothing but false hope .
How will everything be okay when you don't know what you did wrong ?
When you can't help but wonder what is it that you did wrong?
You see them each day walking past you like yesterday never happened ,
Like you never meant anything to them.
And then it strikes you that maybe your thoughts are right , that maybe you never meant anything to them
That maybe everything was a joke
Nothing but a mere lie.
I've been living all these years thinking it'll all be over soon,
Oh! How I wished people would be better to me .
That they won't just see me as an option ,
And use me like a tissue paper , that they'll be there for me and not in just my dreams.
These thoughts remain thoughts as they drain down as tears
No matter how brave a person seems the breaking point lies somewhere near.
Every night as I tried to sleep I pray to god some mere words
"Oh dear god , I hope someday I wake up and it'll all be over"
My faith and hope are vanishing away as I wake up and see its not a nightmare,
That I'll have to roam with people for whom I know I am an option ,
Sit with them fighting the urge to cry
Passing another day reminding myself
"
Just a few more days and it'll all be over"
And hence with each day my hopes fading away .....
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So guys this was the very first thoughts of my very first book...
I know its not perfect but if it touched you , even if a little bit
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I don't care if The comments are good or bad but please just comment and I'm gonna give dedications , soon.
Any personal questions regarding this , you can message me and I promise you I'll reply all.
Any ideas you wanna give me regarding the thoughts , you are free too!
And if any of you suffered anything like this or bullying etc. Then you are free to tell and I'll it'll inspire me !!
Next update : I'll try for tmrw
Till then
Hugs kisses and secret admirers ♥
-Anna
