i used to be so filled with you
you used to be so deep in the canals of my ears
for you filled them with the deepest of the voices
all the four chambers in my heart never felt so filled
(and yet without the need to burst)
i used to be so attached
so needing, wanting, forgiving
in each of the fingertips i own there have been at least a touch of yourself
as i caress my hair at the ends on which they have been forcingly chopped off,
i breath softly, recognizing all of the small memories such as when i first learned to replace pain with pain, or the larger ones where i realized that the coldness of you always seemed colder when it included me
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i love desperately even when i know nothing is guaranteed
3
julia had green locks and blue eyes. she was full of colour until she fell under. i like my world saturated with colour. i believe the world to be saturated. the simplest speck of shade...
4
burned skin. blood. bulimia. black. the four B's
to recover
and to relapse
