Just let me lie here, in my twisted mind.
I try to run away from the fact and it's even more overwhelming.
For years I haven't come to term with it.
It's hard to let anything define me.
I can't even kid myself this time.
It came back and its stronger then ever.
This wave of pain is unbearable.
It's grasp is unbreakable.
It's voice is unshakable.
It's seeped so far into my mind that I would have to kill myself to successfully extract it.
A place that I thought I only gave myself access to.
It's no longer my own, I'm sharing it with this corrupt resident.
This corrupt resident that comes and goes as it pleases.
It's my own fault for needing someone to be with.
I'm no longer alone, isn't that what I wanted?
All I need is for someone to see and tell me it will be okay.
Pull me away. Don't make me stay. Listen to me, "I dont want it this way!" I made a mistake.
Yet all I can do is sit here, in my twisted mind and write this before it comes home.
It keeps me hostage, my life is in it's hands.
All I really want is my own peace of mind.
