Alvins POV
"why can't I just go to sleep?" I asked myself out loud, not loud enough to wake my two brothers up of course. I sat up and crossed my arms, staring at the window. These thoughts are making hopeless on sleep, schools tomorrow too.
"Alvin, you're talking to yourself again" Simon said sleepily, he's so easy to wake up it's almost impossible to even walk on eggshells.
"Well excuse me, I don't know why I can't go to sleep" I actually do know why, and I wish I didn't. The thoughts I've been thinking and the feelings I've been feeling, it makes me disgusted with myself. Yes, me, the handsome heart throb Alvin Seville, disgusted with myself.
Simon sat up and looked over at me "try counting sheep" he's so sarcastic I love it. Wait, no I don't love it. Lies lies I do.
"Why don't you go back to sleep yourself?" He rolled his eyes.
"You keep talking to yourself, always asking yourself why can't you go to sleep, asking yourself why you're so 'handsome'" he chuckled.
"I do not ask myself that!" I whisper yelled. He looked at me with the "you're fooling no one look", I love when he looks at me like th- NO I DONT... yes I kinda do..
"Okay maybe a couple times!" I said in defense "what's wrong with me thinking good about myself?" it's not like I think good about myself all the time, at least since a few months ago when I noticed how good looking... S-s-Simon is.. Yes I said it. I think my own BROTHER is fine. His nerdy ways, his own little rockstar ways, his singing, his instrument talent, his glasses. I don't know what's wrong with me, I know it's illegal and disgusting, and the fact of having crushes on the same GENDER isnt completely okay in society. I don't even know if I'm gay, I honestly might just be bi, but I'm not so sure. That's one thing driving me crazy, my sexuality. Another BIG thing is who I'm crushing on! My b.r.o.t.h.e.r! My own brother! My 5 minute younger sibling, the one whom I've shared a bed room with for 7 years, whom I've been around almost every minute of my life! And me, Alvin 'never up to any good' Seville, is going to ruin our brotherhood, well if he ever found out! Which he won't, he cannot ever I mean EVER find out.
Simon shrugged "there's nothing wrong with thinking good about yourself, but being in love with yourself is completing annoying"
"I'm not In love with myself, smart guy!"
"Whatever floats your boat, Alvin" he said, laying down and falling back asleep. I rolled my eyes and laid back down, I took Simons sarcastic advice and counted sheep. I only got to the 3rd sheep and I quit, I don't like math, which I don't like counting.
I just laid there with my eyes closed, trying to think of something other then Simon. I tried sports, I tried music, I tried to even think of Brittney! Nothing works, nothing will ever work. I'm a disgrace, I'm nothing anymore. I could ruin our family, our reputation, brotherhood, our fame, our carrier, EVERYTHING.
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So I've decided Alvon is the cutest ship in all chipmunk ships, yes Alvon. Simon and Alvin. I do understand its inc!st but it's just a fanfiction, do not read if you have other opinions, thank you.:)
