I feel like we've clashed from the moment I realised that you existed.
You seem to want me to be happy whenever you feel like it, not when I want it.
And honestly, I hate you for it a lot of the time.
You're constantly reminding me that I'm difficult.
That it takes a lot for people to be comfortable around me. It takes a lot for them to love me because I'm difficult.
And I am.
You make me go from happy to anxious to sad, back to anxious & it's all on your terms.
You're part of me yet I cannot get mastery over you.
You're constantly reminding me that I don't understand you, that you're in control which is probably why you've won so many battles.
You make accepting my lack of control so easy.
Make me complacent.
I don't try anymore. I know I should but you make it so difficult.
I'm done fighting you.
You win.
