Losing Life's Grip (ONE SHOT)

If tears could build a stairway,

and memories were a lane,

I would walk right up to heaven

to bring you home again.

No farewell words were spoken

no time to say goodbye

you were gone before I knew it,

and only God knows why.

My heart still aches in sadness :(

and secret tears still flow,

what it meant to lose you,

no one will ever know.

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Hi, my name is Lindsey. I was so happy back then. Urgh! Okay, let me rephrase it, we we're so happy back then.

Me, my siblings, my Papa and Mama.

Happy memories being with them

In times of laughter

Even in sorrow

But all the happy thoughts CHANGED.

When my mother stricken a breast cancer.

She had a cancer for almost 2 years.

When I heard the truth

My world began to fall.

At first I didn't show any emotions.

I rebelled.

I always answer my mother.

Yeah, I know that I'm being a rebelled girl back then.

I don't even care how people see me,

Until one day realization hit me.

My mother was in a horrible condition.

"Kelangan pa palang nasa mapanganib na condition si Mama bago pa ko magbago." I said

I felt guilty at the same time a very irresponsible daughter to her.

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.

Days passed by, I'm changing myself for the better.

I took care of her with the help and support of my relatives for months.

Until my mother stop walking and labored to talk.

We had to put her in a nursing home which was close to our home.

I went to see her everyday to feed her and try to ease the pain of Cancer.

She was in the nursing home for 2 weeks. Then after the therapy, we bring her home.

We planned that my mother will go thru a home therapy, so that she wouldn't toiled enough.

One night, my mother rushed to the hospital for some reasons.

"Nahihirapan na ako anak, hindi na ako makahinga" she said with an agony.

"Ma naman eh, kaya mo yan diba? Sabi mo pupunta pa tayo sa island sa may romblon diba ma? *huk* Diba sabi mo hihintayin mo pa ako magtrabaho para maipunta ko kayo sa ibang bansa? Walang bibitaw Ma" I said while sobbing