I Won't Abandon You (Kaneki x Reader) (Discontinued)

Chapter 1~ Abandonment...

darkness fell upon the city.
As it soon became night.
I was wandering around the quiet
City.
Alone.
Thinking.
Thinking.
And thinking...

-Flash Back-

I wandered around the streets.
I watched as the smaller kids played on the swing sets and slide down the slides in the park. The kids on the swings had their parents, Moms and dads. Pushing them while they had their hands in the air as they flew up in the sky only to be going back down while laughing. Their parents make silly faces at their children, earning a sweet smile come across the childrens' faces.

It was a happy sight. But it only made me feel more sad.
What was it like having a family?
I don't quite remember mine.
Or Even if I really had a family at all.
I'm a small child as well. But I feel
....
Different

I always have this feeling inside me.
Like I was all alone.
This world seemed so happy, bright, and amazing to others.
Yet,
For me, it feels like I'm trapped in a dark room.
One which had a single window.
Where I always stand, only to see happiness in other people's eyes.
If I walk into a mirror, will I see
happiness in my eyes?

-flash back ends-

I continue walking. Only passing by a
Familiar park. One which I know I have been to. But never played on, for I know I will not enjoy playing alone.
I am 17 now.
I'm too old for parks anyway...

I continue walking.

-Flash Back-

It was my birthday.
I was turning 9 today.
But instead of having a party,
I sat alone in the dark alley I call home,
enjoying a small gift I made myself.
I made friends at school.
They were nice.
I'm glad I met them.

-Flash back ends-

I find myself walking into another familiar area. A dark alley?
Perhaps It was the one I had
lived in before?
I don't quite remember.
All the places I walked into seemed
Dark in a way.

So I continued walking.

-Flash Back-

I am now 12.
The friends I have made when I was
9 had become sad,
More like depressed.
So I tried by best,
To cheer them up.
I gave them gifts,
That didn't work.
I did their homework,
They didn't care.
I did their chores at their houses,
that just made them annoyed.
I brought them to their favorite spots in town
They hated those spots since then.
I gave them my money in case they were struggling.
I didn't have any left for myself afterward.
I gave them my ragged clothes in case they were cold.
They ripped it and I was left with only one pair I now wear everyday.
I gave them my heart in case they felt unloved.
They took it and walked away.
Then broke it afterwards.
They wanted to die, so I gave them my hope for life.
They are alive now.
But I'm dead inside.
I never saw them again.
Not a single one.
Was I selfish?
Selfish to think I could help my only friends?
Selfish to think I could even have any?
Or
Was I just not meant to have any?

-Flash Back ends-
I walked down to a school.
I never had gotten any education.
I found my friends while they were heading home from school.
Maybe they just pitied me and befriended me.
Only to leave me afterwards when they are satisfied.
I was abandoned again wasn't I?
names..
Names...
What were their names again..?
Right..
Gabriel..
James...
Alexis...
Genesis...
Many more...
I can't remember..
Those names...
Those were the ones..
I can only remember.
.....
Family...
Friends...
What's next...?