ephemerality ✖ calum hood [au]

01 ✖ first note

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Calum,

I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier. I didn't want to lose you, but now I guess it was too late. I  want you to read these notes in order, day by day, until you reach the end of the year. I so badly wanted to tell you about my cancer, but I knew it would break you. But I guess it already has. By now you've probably found out already and I'm sorry you had to hear it this way. I'm writing this while texting you, sick, I know - writing this at the same time I'm texting you. That's probably one of the worst things I've done so far in my life. But the goal I want to achieve with these notes is to convince you to move on, because I know you, Calum, and I know you don't let go so easily. So here's my first little piece of advice:

there are dozens of girls out there.

so go and choose the right one. the one who doesn't keep any secrets. And by now, this note has probably turned into a letter, but as the days go by, these will become shorter, I promise. Please take my piece of advice and use it.

- Colette. xx