I shouldn't be thinking about you while I'm driving down the freeway on my way to a movie with a friend. I shouldn't be thinking about you while I'm sitting on my bed watching a couple cuddle or kiss on Netflix. I shouldn't be thinking about you as I think back on Homecoming or when we went to the movies and got high. I shouldn't be thinking about how I should've grabbed your hand and held it tight. I shouldn't be thinking about "what if I wasn't scared to love" and wondering if that would've changed where we are now. I shouldn't be thinking about you every moment of the day but I am. I can't stop thinking about the way you smile or the way you laugh or the way you hugged me with both arms or the way you remembered my favorite animal and bought me the cutest stuffed animal I'll ever have. I shouldn't be thinking about walking up to you and kissing you whenever I see you. I shouldn't sit wondering if you think about me too.
But I do.
