Hey I know it's kinda hard
To understand sometimes
That's okay
When life hands you so many lemons and limes
And you have committed so many mental crimes
Tried to go through and deal with hard times
Only to come out filled with blurred up lines
On your wrists
In your mind
As it twists
And unwinds
And falls apart
Like a restless heart
Completely shattered
Bruises and battered
Beautifully flattered
Only to fall
Collapse in a heap
you just want to sleep
but sleep isn't there
so where is it where
can't find the ceiling
the one that you're scared
Of as you keep on just falling
Time isn't waiting but you're only stalling
You know time will come
Rush thick and fast
Like blood that is black time is thicker than water
The crying eyes of a daughter
Prove this to you
As you lie in the slaughter
Revel in pain
As life your heart gains
The rushing of liquid falls from your brain
And your arms
Jesus christ your arms
As they bleed just the same
The same as they did
When you succumbed to the pain
That one time before
When you forgot to lock the door
And mother came in
Screaming your name
Taking the blame
Crying for you
She knew what to do
She called 911
But when they got to the house you were already done
Falling asleep
The consciousness failing, eyes open you keep
As slowly you drift
Your head missed a shift
Of time
You wake up to a light
As sour as lime
Something so tight
Stuck in your mind
The pain of the guilt
The guilt stuck in your mind
Was so overpowering
You just closed your eyes
The migraine increased
Morphine took over
As you went back to sleep
But not this time
You locked all the doors
You wrote your goodbyes
You got in the tub
And took out a life
That could have been beautiful
If you had just tried
To see the weak sun through the clouds it's behind
And this time you got it
This one feels right
Until you wake up,
On comes a light
You're in your own bed
Your arms are alright
The sweatshirts you wear will hide the red lines
The ones that spell out the words 'I am fine'
It was only a dream
The best dream in a while
But still just a dream
As you start with a smile
Maybe today after school
You will call up your girl
And say a hello
You will hear as she smiles and responds with a show
Of affection
A sound that makes your heart grow
As you talk and you realize you could never let go
Because everything you love is all right here
Everything you love, next to everything you fear
But the fear that you feel is nothing compared
To the love between heavy hearts through pain and smiles shared
You can do it my lovely
I promise
I swear
Because even in darkness
The sun is still there.
