Stay With Me

Stay With Me (Part 1)

I'm staring nowhere. I can't think. I'm not inspired to write a song today. But I have deadline to comply and if I didn't submit it on time, for sure he'll nag at me.

As I'm busy writing every idea that popped into my mind, I can't help but reminisce how I fell in love with him. He's so cool when I first met him and he's even cooler now. He's very popular and many girls all over the world are admiring him. I wonder if he'll accept my feelings.

We were in college back then when I first met him...

"Ooops, I'm sorry," he said as he apologized for bumping me. He helped me in picking up the books I fell.

"It's alright. Thanks," I said as I smile. He smiled back that made me to stare at him. The curve in your lips and how deep your dimples are.

He's on rush so he immediately walk away. I wonder who he is.

I went to the library to return the books I borrowed. After that, I decided to head on cafeteria to grab my lunch. While I am eating, I heard someone rapping and I think it comes from our audio-visual room since they turn it on every break for announcement and to feature some songs.

We are keenly listening to the guy who are rapping. The beat is catchy and his skills is awesome.

"I think it's Namjoon," I heard from the girl beside me said. I wonder who Namjoon is.

"Yeah, he's so cool and he's even the President of Music Club now," the other girl said and they're kinda 'kinikilig.'

I'm part of the Music Club but I don't know who's our President is. Speaking of Music Club, we have meeting today. I finished eating my food and head on Music Club room.

As I enter the room, the meeting is already starting. I walked quietly towards the seat on the back.

"Are you part of this club?," I heard someone asking. As I look who it is, he is the guy I bumped into this morning. Is he our President?

"Ahm, are you asking me?," I asked him as I point myself with my fingers.

" Who else would I be asking when you're the only one standing here and interrupting our meeting?," He said and I don't like the way he's speaking to me.

"Excuse me?," I said as I try to calm myself. "I am a new member of this club," I answered him proudly flashing my wide smile.

"Oh I see, you can get out now," he said and there he goes with his smile again.

"What?!," I protest because he's asking me to get out.

"One of the rules of this club is that if you're late, you can't enter or join the meeting," he explained and I'm getting distracted with his smile. As much as I want to protest, the other members are looking at me so I stepped out the room.

I smiled as I remember that moment because of Namjoon's smile. Then an idea popped into my mind. I have something to write now.

"I guess you're already done with the song you are writing since you are here now," he said as soon as he saw me entering the recording room.

"Well, you can say that," I said happily then handed him the flash drive that contains the raw file of the song I wrote.

Weeks have passed and I haven't heard any news from Namjoon about the song I gave to him. I'm walking in the hallway of our company when I decided to visit Jihyo in practice room. She is busy practicing her new song for her comeback. As she started singing, I froze from where I am. The song is familiar and that is the song I wrote for Namjoon. How did it happen that Jihyo will sing that song? I didn't interrupt Jihyo and head directly to Namjoon who is busy in recording room.

"Why did you give it to her?," I asked him with my anger bursting out.

"What are you talking about?," He asked as he looked at me then returns in listening to his recording.

"Why did you give to Jihyo the song I wrote entitled 'SMILE'," I asked him as I calm myself. As he heard that, he turns off his recording and face me.

"What's the issue with that, Jennie?," He asked with blank look on his face.

"What?!," I asked because it seems that he's fine with that. "Namjoon, I wrote that song for you," I told him letting all my emotions burst out.

"I can write my songs Jennie," he answered as he turned his back on me and return on what he is doing earlier.

"Then why are you asking me to write you a song?," I finally asked him. I'm wondering if he likes the song I'm writing.

"For you to have some use in this industry," he said and it hurts me hearing those words from him. I don't care if I'm crying now. I can't take it that he just gave it while I'm being sincere writing that. He doesn't like me neither the songs I wrote.

Despite of what happened between us, I still attend when he called out for a meeting. I'm still part of his team and his acting like it didn't happen. I do my best to avoid him and not make any contacts with him.

Before I leave the room, he asked me to write a song again for him.

"Okay," I answered him with no emotions at all. I want to add something but I didn't, its not like he cares for it.

I didn't sleep that night so that I can finish the last song I'll write for him.

I walked confidently as I head on the recording room where he is. As I enter the room, he is shocked with my presence.

"What are you doing here so early?," He asked curiously. "Wait, don't tell me you're already done with what I'm asking you," he added flashing his smile. Don't smile, I hate it.

"Here," I said as I placed an envelope in his front. I didn't answer him nor talk with him. For what? I've done enough and he's not even apologizing for the hurtful words he spoke to me that day.

I give him my cold look and leave the recording room. After that, I head to our CEO's office to give my resignation letter. He's the reason why I chose to work here and he's also the reason why I'm leaving this company. I know he knew that I like him but he's taking it for granted.

I've had enough and it's not healthy anymore for me to work here. I bid goodbye to my boss then gets my things without the others knowing.