I can't stop hating myself for what I did to you. I can't stop hating myself for what I didn't do. Maybe if I pushed my feelings aside we would still be friends. Maybe if I didn't push you away we would be okay. I'm sorry. I can't stop this toxic cycle of me missing you and you not caring anymore. It's times like this that I especially miss you. Because you promised you would always be there for me. No matter how much I pushed you away. I told you every time that I would be too much for you. I guess I was right.
