AGAIN ;

skip,,

rewind,,

play,,

that is where my mind is set

i've genuinely asked myself

if you could, would you do it again

like, would you do everything, 

would you fall into misery

cry into nothing

and ache for something

just to relive those four years

embarrass yourself again

fall in love some

be alone more 

forget everything up to this point

just

to

do it

all

again?

and it's horrible but

i

i would

all i want is

to close my eyes

and be back

i want to open them

and be there

i want to be back at the place it all started

the conversation that would mend us and break us horribly

more than anything

god, snow

i would do it again

and again

and again

and again until there's nothing left but our broken bones and dust

i would do it again