I am sixteen and I still want the teenage chaos.
I want the attention and the fun and the friends and the boys.
I want a taste of rebellion and danger but I am small and quiet. Shy and invisible.
I feel like I have been couped up in a safe shelter and now I want out.
I have always wanted out, but now I want it more than ever because I am only getting older.
It feels like my youth is the fine sand in an hourglass, gushing down to the pit; my time is running out.
I won't be young for much longer.I'm sixteen, I am the older half of the teenage cohort but I still want my first kiss, my first date, my first love. I want all these things.
I want a young love that will grow old but never wither away.
I wonder sometimes, whether love will consume all other desires.
I crave and fear a love that will cloud my vision and make me blind, make my stomach do acrobatics and ache for the butterflies he brings.But more than anything, I am terrified of a love that will fade away and leave me scattered, like grains of sand in the wind.
You would be the wind and I would be the sand.
I am sixteen and I want to laugh 'til my sides ache with friends that accept me in my crazy state
. . . but I am just quiet again.
I am sixteen and I want skinny legs and short skirts. I want to wreak havoc and be a storm
but . . .I think you know I won't.
The whole world is telling me to grow up and that's exactly what I did
and now I want my youth back.
03/02/18
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PoetryA collection of relatable thoughts for the sad teenager. Stay back, slut. Some real shit coming through.