always second best

again

Why is it always me? The four of us sat to watch a movie and i just wanted him to hold me in his arms. Although he was not muscular i felt drawn towards him. We got along so well but my so called friend always threw herself at him even though she has a boyfriend. What does she have that i dont? Yes she is beautiful but am i not beautiful too? Yes i am a loudmouth but still i want to feel protected even though i can take care of myself whereas she is so dependant. She gets all the guys while i get none.  She always makes herself seem incapable and the rush to her aid. I swear she goes and looks to get into situations for them to save her. I hate that i feel second best but this is not a one time thing as you'll soon find out...