u left me, alone with a kid, and expect me to let you in my life again?

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i know it may sound boring, but hey, its only chapter 1 and i know its short! sorry.

many thing will happen soon in the next chapter! i promise ;)

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here's the story! (the prologue isnt really a prologue :/ its the start to the entire story.. sort of. hehe :B sorry!)

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prologue~

Everything was falling apart.

The walls that we built together all came crushing down.

Whenever i look up at the sky, your face was the only thing i saw.

But all this was in the past.

I am never going to be brought down by you again.

I fell down hard, but i stood up again, 2 times stronger than before.

But still, sometimes, i can't help but miss your warm embrace no matter how much i tell myself that im not suppose to think of you. Better yet, to even miss

you.

When you left, you took a part of me along with you.

I never knew what that part of me was that you took along.

I hated you for leaving me behind without a word.

I hated you for going against the promise that you always whispered to me when i was warm in your arms.

I hated you for everything.

Hated you for not calling, hated you for not caring, hated you that you left without a word.

But then, when i think back to the times when we were always laughing together, you were forgiven.

Now, being alone in this world was the reality.

You were my past, a closed chapter of my life.

And i realised, no matter what i say to myself, a small part of me hated you, a big part of my heart still loves you.

Maybe time will heal.

Right now, i look forward to the coming of that time when i can finally look back at my memories of you without feeling the pain.

chapter 1 ~

Months past. People come and go. Phone calls calling from everywhere.

I never knew when i finally came to the sense that he would never be back.

I thought i was broken down for sure, no returning back.

But i did.

I woke up and pretended like everything was fine every day, ignoring the cold spot next to me on my bed and went on with my daily routine.

i even cleared out all his belonging from my cupboard so as to prevent myself from hurting every time i open it to get dressed.

All the pictures of me and him together were kept away in the attic, far from my eyesight.

All except for one.

The only picture of him.

He was looking out at the sunset when i snapped that picture on my camera.

He never knew about that picture.

But to me, that was the perfect memory of him.

He was a gentle person, always caring for the people around him, loving everyone that was close to him.

He loves me and i love him.

We were perfect for each other.

His perfect calm attitude of his, fit in with my impatient and tempered attitude.

He was always there for me when im down.

He was good at keeping secrets, while i was not.

Infect, he was so perfect at it, that sometimes i get doubtful of him.

But that doubtful feeling always went away when his lips touched mine.

Staring at the picture now,I feel all the emotions fighting their way out of my eyes.

I felt a tear roll down my cheek and quickly swept it away.

I promised myself that I would be strong for myself,my family and

friends, and I never break a promise.

Getting down from my bed and placing his photo under my pillow, I got

dress and left the house for work.

Everyday, I have a goal. A goal to at least brighten up my days ahead

and today, my goal would be to smile at someone.

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Work as usual,helps to take my mind off of things for the whole

afternoon.

While walking home,I received a text from my mom,asking me to go over

to her house which was just down the street from my own home.

Sighning,I walked past my house while looking up at my window.

He used to be there waiting for me to be home from work to cook him

dinner.

A dinner that was always full of laughter.

And speaking of laughter,I heard my mom's laughter from right outside

the door.

So far,I haven't smile at anyone.

I wasn't close to my collegues and all my friend didn't bother to find

me after I kept finding excuse to turn down their offer to going out.

I had no one to talk to,but I was fine with it. Ever since he left,I

craved to be alone with my thought.

Before my fist could connect with the door,someone opened the door and

my face smacked into someone.

~ end of chapter ^^ ~

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