Always by your side (Ben x Jeff)

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Jeff's POV
Me and Ben have been friends forever we have always been there for each other. We cared for each other when everyone else hated us I can't imagine my life with out Ben. He's my best friend though I have different feelings for him I'll never tell him in fear of losing him and our friendship he's an amazing person and every time he complains to me about how a dude he likes might not like him I just want to find out who that person is and punch them I can't believe that someone might not like Ben. Who couldn't like Ben he's a sweet, caring, loving, person who has the biggest heart he's everything I want but can't have and it kills me to know that. Ben knows I'm gay and I know Bens gay so of course we make gay jokes with each other and that makes people think we're dating but we're not and I hate that I've gotten so close to kissing Ben a couple of times while we were joking around because someone asked if we were dating. God I wish I could just tell him how I feel without ruining things.
Ben's POV
"Ugh why can't Jeff just like me already I mean didn't I give him so many hints that I like him is he stupid or something" I complain to hoodie and he just sits there starting at me nodding his head "I should really complain to someone who actually talks" I saw just looking at hoodie as he nods his head again but this time more noticeably " ok wow hoodie could you be a little helpful" I say a little annoyed just wanting someone to help me out hoodie just shrugs and walks away ok rude but what did I expect from a guy who rarely talks I start walking around until I see Jeff god he's so cute let me just go talk to him and complain more to him on how he doesn't like me "hey Jeff" I say walking up to him "oh hey Ben how's life going" "it's going good" that was a lie I know I promised Jeff I would never lie to him but I just can't tell him I don't want him to know what if he finds out and calls me weak and leaves me I don't want to be alone again "that's nice so anything you want to talk about" he says looking at me dead in the eyes my heart is pounding so fast I just want to kiss him so bad "umm well the dude still doesn't like me after all the hints I gave him" I saw looking away from him because I just couldn't look at him I feel him glare at me oh go did I say something wrong "Ben listen if this dude doesn't like you by now then he not worth it you're obviously too good for him and he just can't handle that I know so many people who would kill to be with you you're the nicest dude I've ever met and you're the greatest friend every you mean the world to me Ben, I lo-" he stops in the middle of his sentence and I can feel him getting nervous what was he gonna say I'm not gonna question it because I don't want to make him mad or anything it seems like it doesn't want to say it "thanks Jeff I guess you're right I should just move on but it's so hard he is just so amazing" I say as I hear Jeff mumble something but I can't understand it "I'm gonna go to my room I remembered I have to fix something in there" he says walking away upset hm I wonder if I made him upset
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A/n:so I'm starting a new story because yeah first chapter I hope you enjoyed it