My life

Prematurity ; infant

Year was 1997 A woman called Sara was divorced with single babe on her lap waiting at her mother step door she has left by her husband, after she asked for divorce Sarah were 17 years old at the moment helding
One year old baby.

She did not knew what to do and her mother was the right option than , because in time of need every girl need her mother.

For a macho world, a world of men
It would be a disgrace for a woman
to get divorced and especially a woman with baby, so she was scared of her mother reaction.

Of course Rana Sarah's mother wouldn't be the proudest mom when she know her daughter got divorced.
But Sarah doesn't throught through that at all what Sarah see were her freedom, that were taken by Jamil.
And in order to get her freedom Sarah knew she needed to get divorce.

While waiting Sarah remembered the day her grandfather came to told her that she'll be married to his cousin son a rich becholer who's working overboard in Saudi.

But Sarah refused the propose '' I don't want to marry a man that I do not know and I'm still young to be married''said Sarah to her grandfather.

''Well, isn't your choice to made I've already accepted the proposal and you'll marry him next year you'll be old enough by than.''And she remembered when she tried to run away and hide at her friend place when the year follow but they found her after long search and since than she was locked up at home and even if she went to school, she would be gaurd by uncles.

Sarah was day dreaming until Rana call her  mom was late and exhausted from her job as maid. So she'd was madly and faruios.

it was evening already and she was wondering why her daughter and her grandson were sitting at her stepdoor.

at Sara but Sara needed a mother tenderness and warm hug. But instead she got a warm Argument that ended up in fight
It was the first of many that Sara and Rana what attempt. But it was the first one that I wasn't a part in Sara has always snorted violently by Rana , poor Sara instead of being a happy day of her independency it turn to miserable day full of her mother shouting and serious threaten that should thrown to the street if she'd didn't work to support her son and her self."Rana I'm not the centeral bank so I'd pay the bills of yours and your baby, I barley can support myself. You have two opinions either you find a job to support yourself and your baby or you turn to your husband immediately" Rana said harshly
" I'll find a job mama don't worry I'm big girl, I'll support myself and my babe " Sarah answered said burdenly. 
"I would rather to die and not return to Jamil again" she weeped while she said these heart broken sentence.
" I knew he was a dirty man since I saw him girl, don't cry over him honey dry you tears and go to change your place and eat something I have prepare some Sabahe" Rana we're a mother two but a poor mother he could sppourt her daughter and grandson.

So a few weeks later Sara a found a job in a museum park as candy sailer. And in few months she got  promoted to cashier in the candy booth. But Rana was unhappy in the salary that her daughter brought home " Are you so proud that your earning 500 riayals that you earning its pearly cover your babe  diapers, who your planing to cover your other expensive you're disgrace girl. Do you think your mother is earning hundred of thousand in the Saudi house. Are you senseless girl can't you feel hard working I pearly can cover my expense girl who will cover your other expense and I need to pay for rent and electricity too aren't you consuming power too". She used harshly rebuking her when she came with that low paycheck.
" what do you expect to do mother to kill myself , I'm working 16 hours 7 days a week and I can't even see my babe . I only see him seasonally. He's only two years" weeping Sara said
" so find another job that pay you better react girl don't be irresponsible like your father I'm working at two job do like me work more extra hours" Rana said to her daughter Sara
" do you think that jobs grow over tree or what and I can pluck them as I wish I'm experience less and pearly 18 who will hire me " Sara said.
" I was 18 when I came to this country and worked in three different jobs to send you and your sister monthly allowance and your not babe anymore. Honestly I can't support two another mouth when my young strong girl capable of supporting herself"Rana said.

"Mercy me a little bit mother" Sara shouted crying to her room " that's what are you good at crying , weeping and laziness your sloppy un-useful girl"

Sara ran to her friend home  Maria to cry and change her mood a little like she used to do , Maria was her only friend at the moment.
"Your mother is harsh stoned cold woman, how could you living patiently with her" Maira said " No she is good woman Maria , but she is hot blooded farious woman only" Sara Replied "I know but she  couldn't feel how rough you work, she supposed to support you and Cher you up in those hard  moment instead of yelling and shaming you. Maria said
'' what you can do when you have mother like her, no one can chose their family'' mom said

Anyway I've been offered a new job as genitor in fancy girl school and I want you  take it instead. She said
"But that is your job Mary" Mom said
"it's okay honey , you have a  babe and you're more in need than me and the school have  preschool for baby's too. So you can work and see your son at the same time don't worry about me I can manage myself and my salary it's covering my whole expense." She replied
" how can i thank you my best friend"
"By igonraing your mom, and being happy with your baby"
Those was the best three years in my live. My mom and I  Used  to wake up together eat breakfast and got at the buss school each and every morning.
Those best moment was the recess time when my mom didn't had any work to do so I would run to her arm and hug her tight and eat lunch together, but worst moment when mom would had  job to do and I'll spend the recess alone while mom cleaning.
Weekend was the worse I would spend with some Cousin who was mean to me, while mom worked at the museum park as candy seller. But grandma never leave her alone
She would complain and complain and rebuke her when she got low salary and congrats her when she have enough salary but after two years My mom  couldn't stand grandma  complaining anymore " listen Rana I'm working my Ass 24/7 working at different three jobs  and rarely  can see Khalil and have peace of mind and rest those few hours of sleep. I don't want her you complain every month I don't paid well" mom said firmly
" what you mean girl and who you can speak at this tone, you will bring more respectful cheek to this home and pay your pills" replied shouting
" will I'll bring what I could bring , leave it or take it and if you don't like what I'm bringing than you can live alone. I can offered getting my own place and we will we who'll pay you the 70 percent of the expense" mom shouted more loudly
" leave if you I don't care you know the way of the door" heh she said and went to her and close the door roughly
" I will and break the all house if you want I don't care "mom replied and since that day Grandma stopped bothering mom but they never stopped arguing and fighting until recently after 22 year. But from there things started to get better slowly toward my mom.