short love stories

dreaming of whispers of promises

as I hope one day you'll come back to this God forsaken town

so you can see me sitting right where you left me 3 winters ago

still lost in the dream full of promises that your hypnotizing eyes and whispers induced

I realize that's exactly what it is

I'm only dreaming

Dreaming that you'll pull me in like you did for the last time on that quiet October night

when you whispered all the things you'll miss about me

all the adventures you can't wait to share once you get back at the end of spring

whispering how painful being apart will be

but I guess it isnt all that painful because here I sit on my bed, the last place we were together

on a beautiful day, 3 sad springs later

hoping that today's the day you come back

that'll you'll walk in

pull me close

and whisper how all your promises are going to come true

whisper how beautiful I am and how stupid you were to leave

sitting exactly where you left me

exactly how i do every spring

I realize I'm the stupid one for believing all the lies your enchanting eyes covered up for you

sitting here I remember being suspicious of every word you said as you said it,

not fully trusting the promises you were making as we held each other in the dead of the night

and I suppose you sensed me doubting because you knew exactly what to do next

you tilted my chin up towards you and forced my eyes to look into yours

knowing then that as long as our eyes were connected I would believe anything you told me

and you continued whispering promises of love and a life of adventures once you returned

and I continued to push away doubtful thoughts

but now after years of dreaming and years of not wanting to let your promises go

I realize that you won't be walking in any time soon or ever

and that the postcards I receive each spring with no return address saying your still not sure when you can come back are something that was so strategically apart of your plan

and as reality dawns on me that you never meant any of your whispering promises I wonder

why keep me hoping each year?

why not just disappear like a ghost?

but I know why,

I was the first to love you for being you

not the cocky player everyone else knew

I knew your flaws and I knew your secret talents and I still wanted every single one

you keep me dreaming of empty promises because you don't want to end up unloved

I'm the trick card you plan to use when you realize you're all alone and no one is truly there for you

and I begin to feel sorry for you but even worst for myself that it's taken me 3 years to officially allow myself to hear the truth

but I'll hold on to those promises not allowing them to be truly empty

ill go enjoy life, giving myself the promises you left

because I don't need you anymore to show me what life is

I'm going to go live it and only live it with people who won't whisper their promises but proclaim them loud and surely

that's what I deserve

that's what I will get

I only hope that if you do come back you'll find this letter and decide to live out promises you've made to yourself hoping to be a better person

I'll always love you

for you crazy messed up lying eyes opened mine up to enjoy life