walk away

the bells ring,
doors open.
the hallways,
filled with laughter and hollowness
teenagers, making conversation
i walk out the door, casually leaving the building
hoping to see you, i go slower
slower, and slower

i take a brief pause
stopping, looking for the number that matches my bus
i then see it there on the board,
1453, it was number three.
realizing it was a farther walk,
i began to walk slower
slower, and slower

i then see you in the corner of my eye
not making eye contact,
i keep watching.
your beautiful, yet intimidating face,
i was in love.
in love with the fact that i couldn't have you
but that never mattered to me.

i stopped,
and waited by the pole.
i took a peek from behind
catching your eye,
but quickly looking away,
making sure you didn't notice.
and then i saw you,
walking away, you were leaving

seeing you casually walk away, worried me.
i felt as if i was physically losing you
forever, tears began rolling down my face.
i was clueless as to why i was crying,
it felt as if my heart was being ripped in half all over again.

to this day, the memory haunts me
although, i still seek its pain.
however, seeing you casually walk away worried me, i now feel forever alone.