Villian Deku AU

Can I Be A Hero?

     "Can I be a hero, All Might?"Izuku asked, voice shaking, on the verge of tears and waiting for the answer. He was on his knees looking down at the ground, counting every rock waiting for the answer he wanted to hear. The answer his mom didn't give him years ago when he asked her the same question. If the number one hero didn't believe in him, who would?
     All Might grimaced, he didn't want to crush this poor, quirkless boy's hopes. However he also didn't want Izuku to live a life of attempting to achieve a unrealistic goal of being a hero. Izuku certainly wasn't worthy of being his successor, he was small, cowardly, and cried too much. His act of saving Bakugou from the sludge villain was mere stupidity and lack of regard for his safety and the safety of others. He could have hurt himself, Bakugou, or the numerous others that were watching.
    Given all those reasons, All Might got on his on knees, looked at Izuku's glinting green eyes and with a pained expression said "No. You are weak and frail. You cry too much, boy. You have no qualities that resemble a hero. On top of that you have no quirk. "
    Izuku finally looked up, he saw All Might's glaring eyes, looking straight at him. Izuku screamed a primal scream. A scream of despair and crushed dreams. He punched the ground. He broke a finger. He liked feeling pain, he felt he deserved it for being as stupid to believe he could be a hero. He punched the ground again, harder this time, wondering whether he could break the ground before he broke his whole hand. He ended up breaking three more fingers before All Might stopped him.
    "But I've wanted to be a hero my entire life," Izuku sobbed.  "You're the one who inspired me, and you, you're telling me I can't?" Izuku screamed with desperation in his voice.
     "Apologies, boy," All Might muttered while walking away. All Might did not regret crushing Izuku's dreams but he did not enjoy it.
    Izuku stayed on his knees, watching All Might leave off in the sunset like a hero, the hero Izuku had wanted to become. He stayed there, looking at where All Might had been for an hour. He then calmly walked into his house, walked to the bathroom adjoined to his bedroom and opened the bottle of sleeping pills he kept behind his bathroom mirror whenever he had trouble falling asleep. He closed the mirror and looked at himself in it. His eyes were red and puffy from crying. He moved his hand to eyes, then winced, the pain of his four broken fingers finally sinking in. He touched his round face and mussed up hair. He loathed everything about himself at the moment. Once he couldn't take it anymore he got a large handful of pills and an All Might water glass, then proceeded to swallow the pills. One by one, getting drowsier with each pill. His pain fading away and slowly seeping out until he was empty. And then he crashed on to the floor.