"I lost ......again"
She thought,She was staring at the sky , tears continuously rolling down her cheeks ,staining her cheeks , she could feel the pain which was increasing with every passing second , she felt betrayed , her hands were covered with blood as she stared her hands , she felt warm liquid rolled down her eyes , she blinked her eyes as warm liquid fell down on floor , she looked down ,it was blood ,she placed her hand on her forehead , she felt a deep cut under her fingertips on her forehead and it was bleeding and then stared at her bloody hand , she felt impure , she thought herself as a monster , murderer , a killer , what she didn't know was that she was pure soul , she was innocent , she played everything that happened in past in front of her eyes , they told her not to believe them , they told her before no need to trust them
" we're mean , we can't promise anything to you"
but still she decided to choose them , she knew already that they weren't trustworthy , they can hurt her anytime but still she selected the way full of pain , hurt ,betrayal for herself ,she knew that it was her fault not theirs , they were being honest to her , beware of everything, she cared for them , she loved them , she sacrificed her every wish ,every happiness for them but still they weren't satisfied , instead of taking care of her own self she was ready to sale her self for them, what a stupid person she was , they were mean towards her ,always tortured her but she wanted to change them and one day when they called her and she was stunned , they apologized for their behavior she thought she changed them , she was happiest , she thought " I won..." , they planted a kiss on her forehead and then pain aroused in her body when she saw a knife entering her body , she howled in pain, she fell down her on her knees before them like always , she could hear laughter's all around her , and then someone tried to pull her up to stand , she was in pain , she couldn't stand , but she was continuously being forced to stand on her feet, when it became unbareable, her mind stopped working as pain ran across her spine ,her cloths were covered in blood ,bruises all around her body , and at the end she blacked out , it was her end
She opened her eyes and looked around to find nothing but only brightness all around her ,she was wearing a long white beautiful flared gown covering the huge part of ground , there were no more bruises present on her body , no blood
"Am I dead ?" She thought
"Where I am?"she asked herself
She was thinking , when she felt someone's presence , she turned around to see a figure standing , but due to intensity of light behind that person body , she couldn't see the persons face , she covered her eyes due to intensity of light , then that person grabbed her hand and started walking , *if I'm dead ,I'm happy because I don't have to suffer more ,I'm tired of baring pain ,I'm sick of world , if I'm dead then I'm also sad because a sinner like me doesn't deserve heaven, am very cruel person ,I hurted everyone ,they hate me*
"Wh..Who are you ?Where I am ? Am I dead ? " she asked that person, afraid , when she snapped out of her thoughts
And then that person turned around , and she lost her tongue ,unable to utter any word , she was stunned by his beauty , he was handsome no he wasn't handsome he was beautiful then any other prettiest girl she had ever seen in her life ever , she came out of trauma when soft voice entered her ears, he was talking to him
" Don't think to much ,you're not cruel person ,you're pure and innocent , you don't deserve hell OK , but its not your time , you've to go back "
It looked like he can read her mind , but his words scared her
"But ! I can't go back , I don't wanna
Live anymore , isn't it enough how much I've already suffered , I'm tired of this endless pain , just please don't send me back , why God is doing this to me , I can't stand against them anymore , I'm sick , please lemme stay here , please , I beg you ......."
