So I'm suicidal and I have been since I was five or six but I think it was five I do cut myself and I have tried to kill myself more then once I do still cut but not really any body knows besides you I been told bad things before and called bad things to I would get beat up and be called a suicidal freak I do stay up at night so I can cry because I don't want my mom to see me cry because it hurts her and she does know what I am I have been told to go kill myself and that I should die already I have been abused by my dad when I was younger and he tried to kill me so that's part of the reason how it all started I'm just happy that I don't have to see him anymore and I just wanted to say that I'm proud of all the suicidal kids out there that are still alive and I'm sorry for the ones that didn't make and I'm sorry if you or someone you know Lost someone to suicide because it hurts it hurts a lot but what suicide is it's the devil taking over you and trying to get in your head to end it all but please don't don't trun out to be what I am please the only reason why I'm not dead is because of my best friend Hannah and my mom and my big brother David even tho we haven't hang out in a while I know he still loves me it's just he has been on a drinking spread and I just can't lose him to drinking 😭💔 I just can't but yeah that is a little bit about me
