I always do this . I can't control myself . He hurts me in so many ways and I just let him do it . I fell in love with his flaws , his demons , his everything . The biggest mistake of my life ... letting him in my heart. But ... what heart ? He destroyed it , he destroyed it in a second without even caring . Why do I do this to myself ? Why can't i just let him go ? I want to make him feel the pain that I feel everynight, I want him to cry himself to sleep like I did because of him . I mean nothing to him , but he means the world to me . I was the biggest fool to believe that he could actually care for someone like me . I am nothing in his eyes and that's what hurts the most , that's what makes me feel like a piece of shit . But who cares ? I do this to myself , I can't let him go
