More than a freind

Just quincidently?

Help me.

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I can't find out if there's an actual meaning to it or if it's just quincidently.

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Or is there a meaning to it?

In our freindgroup there's a lot of bromance. 

That isn't how it started, though.

In the beginning of high school we were like all other boys just after girls.

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And we made this pact, that if one of us didn't get laid at a party, anothor one had to comfort him.

It started out with just being comfortable words and shittalks like "Who needs a woman anyway." 

But boys get drunk and gay things happen.

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We became the gay squad at our school, but we weren't uncomfortable with it.

We actually had a whole lot of fun.

Just imagine. You could kiss your best friend without it having any consequences.

And there was especially one of my friends... 

... that I liked kissing with more than with anyone else.

And here's the thing that I don't know if it is quincidently or not. 

When ever I didn't find a girl at parties, He would be there. 

At late nights he would drive us home to me, and he would sleep over. 

Sleep? There wasn't much sleep in that actually. 

We kissed and cuddled and behaved like a couple.

I stopped looking for a girl at parties an others occasions. 

The other guys began to noticed that I always missed out, and tried to make a switch, so He wouldn't have to, but here again. 

He wouldn't let that happend.

Now we don't kiss with any others. 

Not even our freinds. 

At parties we go together and in school we're also beginning to kiss eachother.

We're behaving just like a couple. 

But I don't think that we are a couple. 

We haven't talked about it yet, and I think that's why we can be what we are.

Not just freinds, but also not lovers.