Even though I live
I live an empty heart
I live beyond that moment
Yet I still live alone
I grasp at straws
Not near
Not far
And yet they are
My thoughts
They've been tossed
Cast upon the winds
Lost
My struggles
They're real
My future
Let's make a deal
It's been a decade
Even longer
I feel I'm broken
The feeling is getting stronger
I pull
Yet try pulling away again
But standing on this edge
It's become too close
It's become my friend
Instead of going smooth
It's just getting harder
It's the sum of choices
My world has gotten darker
Have I reached that end
Was I really there
Into the abyss I stepped
Only to Awaken
Yet again
I have lived as father
I have lived as friend
Yet as I live as Jenn
It feels like a means
To an end
Do I fight for the struggle
Or do I throw up my hands
All at once
Giving up
In the end
I took this path
It wasn't just some bet
I regained life
Found my place
I shouldn't fret
Yet I feel
It's at an end
I never truly gave in
I never said
I give up my friend
The struggle
it's real
In my heart
I can feel
It's close
In the end
That last pulse
It will be real
Once again
