Let me start by introducing myself, I'm Jas and I'm 20 years old. I'm currently in college and I live with my mother.
Life on others has been... let's say beautiful, lovely, even joyful. Life on me... let's just say... HORRIBLE. I know what you're thinking, stop overreacting how hard has life been.
Let's start here
Trying my best to keep positive while writing this but.. I was sexually assaulted by my cousin at age 6. Again at 8 by another. I told my mother and she didn't even believe me. She literally brushed it off. What does a 8 year old girl do after her mom is acting like it never happened? Nothing.
I've always been the shy type growing up... so I never really had friends except for two girls named Joy and Sky. I've had my first "love" but never a boyfriend. I have chapters dedicated to them because that's a long story too lol.
Growing up, it's always been my mom and I. She's my number one but when it comes to my lifestyle, we're not on the same page... just can't see eye to eye.
My biggest problem is that I keep my emotions in and never talk about them. I feel so alone. Many nights I cry myself to sleep.
Make friends you say, talk to some guys, or start a hobby.
Friends.. no.
Talk to guys... they're idiots.
Hobbies? I have those.. still doesn't work.
I sound crazy.. but in a world that revolves around all of those ... how in the fuck are you suppose to maintain?
DU LIEST GERADE
One in a Million
RomantikTime after time, I get let down. My happiness never lasts... never. Slowly throughout my 20 years on earth, I've driven myself into depression. I can't get out! I've tried everything. Wait... who is he?
