𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈-𝐒𝐎𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋

𝗧𝗵𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗻

𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐚

" inmate 224 you have three visitors step forward " the officer said as my father stepped into the room with cuffs on

" use your time wisely inmate " the officer said while taking his cuffs off

As he walk over to the table I could see the confusion in his face

" I'm hallucinating or sum " he asked sitting down

" nope they really here "

I could see the tears forming in his eyes as he looked at Berlin and que

" I'm sorry " que spoke up

" don't be " he got up and hugged her rocking her back and forth

Berlin got up next and hugged him

" i ain't wanna leave but I had to get away " he mumbled while they where hugging

" you back now that's all that matter " they both say back down

" you been to see yo mama " he asked and I rolled my eyes

" nah not yet "

" y'all need to get y'all relationship together ight " he said to all of us

" fuck her " I said bluntly

I saw que trying to hold her laugh putting her hand over her mouth

" Nattasia I know y'all not getting along but at the end of the day that's yo mother "

" my mother prays for me to die on a daily basis "

" she don't mean it "

" stop making excuses for her cause one day you gone get a call from que or Berlin that god finally granted her wish "

" I just want you to try cause you never know shit look at me "

" I don't want no relations with her " I shrugged

I saw Berlin looking at me for a second before looking back at our dad

" every time I'm down here imma come visit you " Berlin said

" where you live at now " he asked

" New York "

" you straight you don't need none right "

" I'm coolin right now "

" what you been up to que "

" I'm getting ready to graduate I already have my business degree and I've been saving up to buy my first house I just need like half a band and I'll be set " she said while smiling I smiled to cause I was happy she was happy

" you know you could of asked me to get if for you "

" I know but I wanted to work for it myself "

" I'm proud of you I already know you gone be successful in life "

" what about you " he asked me

" what about me " I shrugged

" what you been doing since last time "

" living day by day "

" that's it " he asked

" yep "

" aye I gotta do some dad so we gone go " Berlin said getting up with que

" alright I love y'all be safe " he hugged each one of us before we left

As we made our way back to the caramel I got in I could feel myself getting angry. Not at father per say but at his constant persistence for me to build a relationship with my mama when it's clear as day she doesn't want to even be around me

It's like he thinks it's so easy to just forget all the things she said to me while I was growing up thing that are now I'm beaded in my brain . I can't just forgive her I don't think I can forgive her cause she doesn't even have a reason for treating me like she does

He doesn't know how it feel for your mother to tell you she hopes you end up in casket just like your friend cause you won't ever be shit in life . He doesn't know how it feels to hear her say she wish she had aborted you cause you where the worse thing that happened to her . He just doesn't know

" you want me to drop y'all back at the house or" Berlin said stoping at a red light breaking me out of my train of thought

" yeah cause I need my car "

" where you finna go " que asked

" out " I shrugged

" just be careful and be safe " she said looking back at me

" I'm always safe " I said as Berlin pulled into the driveway

" bye " I said getting out the car walking up to mine getting in the drivers seat

" dang no I love you " I heard Berlin yell as I backed out

" I love you I guess " I yelled driving off

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I've been feeling real fuck everything lately and ion know why like everyone and everything has just been annoying me but anyways

Again this is short asf but anyways

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