Abstain

To restrain or refrain from an enjoyable activity
Particularly at hand
One branded to the human race
I'm faced with a difficult choice
To deny a desire to be with a man
Naturally, I'm too much of a lady
Lately I'm too much a woman
Strong Independent
And I can help myself thank you
Respectfully I'll pass.
The strongest is consistent, adherent to her no
The lines are blurry though
No to him or no to her?
Who is beneficiary?
The mission of the abstinent is eerie
Versus desire, seek, and conquer
The airy nature of the free
Count to ninety and you haven't missed a beat.
Not to mention
Dodged a bullet sooner with intention
So I ask, is this
Mental health stay or penitentiary
Is it
The resolution or the lie
Is it...
The illness or the cure
Is it?
It's hard to be sure
In this case
Its abuse to the addicted
I'm conflicted about every but one thing
Feeling is not only physical
My dreams touch me nicer than men do
Morning crust met with morning dew
Honey dried delicates
I'm only courting my next climax
If I promise not to catch feelings or anything more deadly
Can I guarantee
Consistency in my intake
I can say saving shame
I like when
The dick takes me
Of course when it's done right
Brute force if you want to do me wrong
Point being
It's been a long time running
I'm finally able to exercise the right to split my thighs
As I please and with whom
But feminism doesn't tell you you're still the underdog
Body and Mind must align
With bodies AND minds
Do you like how I touch you, not do you like how I love you.
Hoe doesn't scare me, but alone does.
Pillow talking in the mirror
Fear is what I smell in the morning
Rather than his scent
I spent myself
The value of my currency deplenishing
I'm only relishing the memory of a moment and hardly the promise that it will ever happen again.
I need it again.
Three times in the morning and once at noon
Seasonal vibration keeping us in like the flu
I'm sick for it
Tripped over dick before
And frankly flat isn't a good look for my face
I'm fazed and frozen in place
My next move undecided
If I confide in the Wait
It's hard to debate it
When it's real
Abstain