Hi
Sure, I have a tummy with enough skin -and fat, I can't tell- to fold into the shape of scrunched up paper. I have thighs that were once thick but now appear out of proportion to my body. My butt is kinda round but it's not amazing. I fear every tome I keep food down that I'm gonna get fat, but recently I started keeping my breakfast down. I will eat u til I'm sick from being over full - please be patient with me. Tell me that I'm going to make myself sick, and I should stop, not because of my size but because of my mental state. I get mood swings that are intense, with insane hyper energy periods, and extremely prolonged depressive episodes. I love cooking but recently I haven't been too good, despite my past abilities. My hair isn't very nice, but I like it darker which is kinda cool. My lips are small compared to my nose and eyes and I get scared that I look bad without my glasses. Ball night was scary. Sometimes I can't shave my legs, and I often look sad because I can't stop replaying f things in my brain. Be patient. Things were toxic for a while. I have a phobia of being fat, and of space, but I can happily talk about psychology, cooking and the kids at my daycare for hours. I would like you to listen and join in, but only if you're not bored. I will stop talking because I don't wanna bore you. I don't talk much now anyway. I really like learning but sometimes I can't be bothered. Teach me things. I like to be spoilt but I wanna spoil people too. I often get sad because I miss human connection. But that's ok. I don't realise but the first thing that I prioritise in myself is my body image even though I don't put in effort physically. In someone else, it's their ability to be amazing. My biggest dream is to travel and see the world, I think I want freedom because my head traps me. I want to do it with someone I love. But I wanna find that too. I don't know what I want as a career.
I know I want to be happy.
My new favourite colour is yellow.
