friends

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( i know the time is fucked up and so is my english but i'm just doing this for fun so ignore the fact that the time is not right at all ) also pls ignore how bad these first chapters are i gets kinda better but later i realised that these are absolutely awful but pls don't give up on them:))

and i would really appreciate if you read my other story cause i'm working hard on it but barley anyone reads it:(

sarah walked over to me, sat on my lap and slowly grabbed my jaw to force my face to look her in the eyes. " harry, listen, you don't need to be with her if you don't want to " she said, while pushing my head towards her shoulder leaning into a hug. as she put it there, i felt a weird feeling spreed within me, not a bad one, but it actually felt like she cared.

" you think? " i asked, pushing myself carefully away from her.

" i do ".

" won't her mom beat the shit out of me? ". she pulled her fingers thought my hair, watching me take a deep breath and shaked her head.

" if she does, i swear to god i'll kill her with my bare hands ". i pressed a small smile on my lips and nodded.

" i hope you're right, i really don't want to hurt louis ".

she smiled. " he'll understand no matter what happens, it's not even that big of a deal, it'll all work out great harry " she said, getting up from my lap and clearing her throat. i nodded and she smiled at me once again, holding her tum up as to tell me it's gonna be alright, and i wanted to believe her so so bad, because i really didn't want to hurt anyone. i didn't want to hurt taylor, she was an amazing woman but i just had to tell her simon was the one who made me even talk to her in the first place. but i still wanted to be her friend, wanted her to understand and kind of keep pretending because if we didn't, i know that simon and the rest of the world would never forgive me. and louis. but first, i had to tell louis about it too. he was absolutely broken when he found out about me and taylor, and he didn't talk to me for days and couldn't even stand looking at me. so i could not ruin this one chance to make things right again, and i know i'm making a way too big deal out of all this but i can't lose louis. even if he's going to be just my friend forever, i can't lose him.

sarah snapped her finger in front of my eyes " harry! i have to go, and so do you " she was staring at me, with her hands on her lose hoodie hanging around her waist. she always looked like such a badass. sarah was gay. she had helped me a lot with understanding himself. i appreciated her a lot for that.

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i took a deep breath, staring at louis bare back while the shirt slipped over his tanned probably soft skin. suddenly he had turned around, and he was staring weirdly at me but then started to laugh.

" are you alright? " he said under his breath with his doncaster high-pitch accent. i probably looked like an idiot standing there staring blankly at the poor boy. i just laughed along. louis sat up from the bed and starting walking towards the kitchen.

i took a few more deep breaths until i started to panic even more because i realised, what the fuck am i doing? why am i even telling him this? he doesn't care? why would he even care? shit, shit. oh. wait. maybe because he's my best friend? of course he needs to know that i was in a fake relationship, maybe he can tell me what to tell taylor, that's normal to talk about with your guy best friend, right? harry didn't really know. he never really had that kind of relationship with someone except for maybe his mom. but after all his mom wasn't a guy.

louis was leaning at the counter and pouring hot water into a cup.

" i gotta tell you something, harry " he said while looking at all the different kinds of tea.

" what is it? " i asked nervously, still terrified about the thought of bringing something like this up with louis.

" i got myself a girlfriend " he sounded happy, but his vocie was still kind of harsh and i could see his hand shaking putting the tea bag into the cup.

" oh " it hurt. it did. i know it shouldn't, but it did.

" yeah " louis responded, his voice was still stiff and wasn't as soft and happy at it usually was. probably because of harrys stupid answer.

" that's great, lou. what's her name? "

" it's eleanor " he handed me the cup and forced a smile. i wonder why. why wasn't he happy about getting a girlfriend? either way it felt weird telling louis about his fake feelings for a girl when he just got one himself.

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i am aware no one will read this and i have no idea how to do this and my writing is really bad, i also have to decide whether i should use third person or first.

so yeah but if someone does ever read this hii pls ik i suck at writing but it kinda calms me down sometimes and it's fun so😁 and ohhh my english is uhm yeah i'm 14 years old and my first language isn't english so don't 🤚