I've always been so reckless
I always wanted to be in danger
Just so, i won't be ordinary
I never wanted to know where I am headed
I hate being stable and assured
---for it was too plain
Yet now, I am longing for those words
I want to be sure with him
With him, I want to spend the rest of my years
It's another challenge
---a roadtrip, a reckless drive
Which I am always looking forward
For it entertains me
THIS IS WHAT I WANT
---an inevitable event, a surpise, a game of winning
But I am nearly tired
I must acknowledge that this game isn't mine to win
But I'm not a good sport
I don't accept loosing---yet
I was fighting for what I want
And what I THINK he wanted
Its has been 5 months
A half year of wait for his return
But nothinv happened yet
Nothing ever will
It was a danger I cannot mold
It shatters me with everything I am
---yet I am loving it
I love this pain for it'll cause so much more.
